Ever since I was a little kid, I’ve always felt like I was a step behind everyone else. As much as I try to catch up I just get further and further behind. There are so many things holding me back, I want to just cut all the strings but I feel in my heart that I can’t do that. I feel like I have certain obligations and duties to certain things and people. I don’t want to hurt anyone, but in the end it’s hurting me. I feel stuck. I understand that I shouldn’t compare myself to others, and that this will pass… but just after so many years I am so tired. I am so tired. I am so confused. I am confused, I am tired. Is what I’m doing even the right thing? If it’s the right thing then why does it feel this way? Keep moving, keep moving, that’s what I’m telling myself so I don’t fall farther behind.