June 2011
123 posts
Very sweet of you to say! Sometimes I feel like I talk about it way too much though and I’m afraid I’m annoying my friends who don’t break haha.
I have the early shift tomorrow at work so I can catch my flight at 7. I can’t wait to be in Orlando. I’m extremely grateful for this opportunity. I can’t wait to be surrounded by positive souls, and reconnect with my friends down there, also looking forward to making new friends. I plan on jumping in every cypher I can.
Spending the night/morning listening to AM Kidd and packing … slowly packing haha.
The way I see it, we are all on our own paths; our paths will sometimes cross and intertwine but we should never abandon our own. If someone is acting low and shisty, then let them, don’t sink down to their level just stay on your path. If other people want to be consumed by what other people are…
I’m all for keeping off negative feelings and malice when sticking out for what you believe. And I’m all for not sinking down to their level, or adjusting. Stick out like and be that thorn. Abstraction, obstruction, individuality and uniqueness are all key to reaching eternity (that’s what I call happiness!). A rock never worn by currents and rivers washing over it, instead holding firm.
However, I feel that with some people it’s misleading to say they choose to be unkind, selfish, cocky, or ignorant. I think that some people need a little nudge or push to kick them out of their comfort zone; I remember listening to one audiobook my brother was playing, and the author described three areas that people generally lie in: The comfort zone, the learning zone, and the panic zone. I think that a lot of unkind, selfish, and cocky people need to be prodded into the learning zone and out of the comfort zone; I’ve been nudged a lot. I doubt nobody wants to feel and be helpless about themselves, or to remain unkind, selfish, and frowned upon in society; sometimes they just need that help. But for people who consciously have an awareness of themselves, and choose to exhibit these traits (whether or not it makes them happy with themselves), I’ll leave them out of my life.
I too, want to have a good heart, good mind, soul, and intentions. I want to leave behind as much of a good example and legacy as I can, but there’s no denying that I’ve left darkness and destruction in my wake, already. There’s no escaping it, in my being, but as much as I can I want to struggle and endure for it. And see to the day that I can look back and really, really accept myself wholly.“Realizing this and learning to detach myself from many emotions/people/things has really helped me open my mind and soul.” — it speaks for me very well, and there isn’t anything I’d like to refute about this statement. On my part, I think the biggest opening of my mind and soul has come from learning to reach out and speak out. To get that swagger, that “aggressive confidence” as I heard on some strife.tv video …
Within the last month, reading a Paranoid Android’s tumblr posts (roadtobcone.tumblr.com), and now bgirl maresco’s posts, have been really inspiring. Their words and posts have done for me what I want to do for others—inspire and incite quaking feelings, hope, fevered dreams, good intentions, in countless people. Making me want to burst at my seams. Damn, I need to get on my game.When I mentioned that people choose to be unkind, selfish, and all those other things I simply meant that everyone makes choices. We may not be able to control every situation but we can control how we react to it or if we react on emotion once we have settled down we can choose how to rationally reevaluate things and approach them. People choose whether or not they will be mean to someone, they choose whether to share something or not, they choose to speak the words that come out of their mouth towards another person (of course there are always special circumstances). Bottom line is when it comes down to our human to human interaction and our own needs/wants, we choose. For example if a kid at the camp I work at does something bad I can either yell at him or I can choose to just talk to him about it. One thing that really irks me is when people say “nigga” and “faggot”, they know that it has a negative core, in my personal opinion by continuing to use it is choosing to be ignorant. People can argue that the meaning has changed and this and that but when you do your research of the origins of them why would you want to use it, or if you realize that it still is being used in that context why would you want to keep using it. Sorry now I’m just ranting… like I said I just meant we all make choices on the person we want to become.
Thanks for reading my posts by the way, I didn’t think anyone really did haha.
Don’t be stupid and waste it on some guy/girl who is gonna act like he/she hates you tomorrow. Never waste it on some one who doesn’t want their friends to know they’re in love with you. Don’t give that person the rest of you tears or a month or a year of your life when he/she treats you badly and doesn’t mind to make you cry. Every person deserves some one who wants to brag about them. Every person deserves some one who makes them smile and laugh at their worst moments. We all deserve at least that.
To be honest, I’m not really that great of a battler when it comes to competition bracket battles, I enjoy the cyphers a lot more… BUT I can give advice on what I have learned so far. Top 3 tips? Hmm i would say to go all out and not hold back, to make sure you have presence, and overall just have fun. It’s your first battle so no matter if you win or lose, do good or bad, just learn from it. You can gain something from every battle. I think it takes a lot of courage to even battle, especially when it’s your first one.
If you go first you could set the pace for the battle, if you go second you could use a burn and you will see what you have to top. I know there are pros and cons, more than what I listed those were just the first thing that came to my mind. For me personally, if I’m not feeling the music I usually try to go second to see if the song changes. When I’m really feeling a song I get lost in the moment and I feel like those are the times I do well in battles. I use to go second on purpose when people didn’t know me so they would hold back because as soon as they saw a girl their mind set changed.
Remember have fun and don’t be too hard on yourself. Record the battle so you can watch it and see what you should change, do more of, do less of, and how people react to certain moves. Good Luck!
The way I see it, we are all on our own paths; our paths will sometimes cross and intertwine but we should never abandon our own. If someone is acting low and shisty, then let them, don’t sink down to their level just stay on your path. If other people want to be consumed by what other people are doing, or to be all up in somebody’s business then let them. Of course it’s fine to stand up for what you believe in, but do not retaliate back on a negative level .People choose to be ignorant, selfish, jealous, cocky, and unkind. People will hurt you in life, they will do things intentionally to get under your skin.. that’s the path they are choosing for themselves. What someone decides to do with their life is their own decision, and how I want to be and live my life is my decision.
I want a good heart, good mind, and a good soul. I want to always have good intentions and never purposely try to hurt anyone, have good thoughts, and over all just be a good person. I’m not exactly where I want to be right now, but I’m on the way to being this person I am aiming to be, and I can’t wait till I am worthy of that. Realizing this and learning to detach myself from many emotions/people/things has really helped me open my mind and soul.
Even though we lost yesterday I was really proud of me and SHENICE. We battled together at another 757 jam and looking back I saw a lot of progression from us both, also I saw progression from us in cypher battles (Thanks to CAPS for the advice).It made me really happy to see a lot of people cyphering and battling in the cyphers, everyone def stepped their game up since the last time I saw them.
What completely made my night though was when the people I thought didn’t like me came up to me and told me they’ve noticed I’ve been practicing and to keep it up. The way I see it, nobody has to say anything to anyone, but the fact that they even acknowledged me for that meant a lot to me.