Maresco

2010 had a lot of ups and downs.  It also had a lot of firsts for me in dance.  I’ve learned so much in this year about myself and I am grateful for everything that has come my way.. good and bad.

I’m going to spend tonight in another city getting down with my Zulu Chapter and one of my fellow XOS (Xplosion of Soul) Crew members (MARSHI!). I have work at 9 a.m. the next day back in RVA which is about 2 hours away from where we will be but.. fuck it.. im trying to spend this time with people I love and respect.. and we will be dancing.. so it’s all good… it’s worth it.

It was this same time last year that so many bboys in Virginia/Maryland/DC thought I was going to fall flat on my face, minus a handful.  I remember how much it hurt, because it was at that moment that I realized that the scene wasn’t all that supportive as I once thought it was.  Bboys were thinking I didn’t deserve this opportunity because I hadn’t been in the scene long enough. It’s not the ones who doubted me, talked shit, and wished the worse for me that I remember… I remember the ones who kept my head up, the ones who pushed me, those who reached out to me, and the ones who stood behind me and chanted all the way up till the battle. 

Do I think I did good in that battle? HECK NO.. I can’t even stand to watch that battle, but it’s more of what was going on behind the scenes that made me realize a lot, made me see true colors.  I love good people weeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Thank you =]

I noticed guys in other/from other countries talk to me with a lot more respect than a lot of the guys here.

“You’re a good kid.  You work hard, you’re a good person, and I pray for you every night.”

He makes me feel like I can keep pushing through this, makes me feel a little less invisible.

IF YOU WANT MEN TO RESPECT YOU, YOU MUST RESPECT YOURSELF!

Just watched an interview on an all female dance group from the DMV that completely blew me away… and not in the good way.  What a poor representation of women in dance… also can’t believe the filipino remark that was made in there. 

People may think I’m blowing it out of proportion but the truth needs to come out.  I’m working hard, other woman as well, to be a positive role model in this.  I’m tired of being disrespected, I’m tired of being grabbed at jams, and I’m tired of people thinking it’s okay.  At the last jam I went to OUTBREAK, a certain bboy who is known to be an OG in the scene wouldn’t stop putting his hands on me until I told him he was coming on way too strong and then he just ran off.. no apologizes nothing.  I was disgusted.  Things like this need to stop and it’s not just a one sided thing from the guys doing this, I mean  certain females make it seem like it is okay… and it’s not. 

“I will never come to one of your battles, i’ll just watch it on youtube..”

“I don’t want to hear about your trips.  I just want to know when you leave and when you come back that’s all”

I almost quit dancing before because I was dating someone who didn’t really seem to support my passion…. that would have been so stupidddddddddddddddd of me!

Super hyped.. yall don’t even know what’s in store for next month… just wait and see.

Have you ever had one of those moments where you just sat there and tried to remember if you put on deodorant today or not?