Maresco

I remember sitting in the airpot last summer, I went to visit my dad, imagining what it would be like to be flown out somewhere for dance.  I can’t believe it’s actually happening. Representing VA, XOS, ZULU, Friends and Family to the fullest.

“you’re going to lose people in this, it’s just something that happens..”

once upon a time my heart was made of ice

Life is so unpredictable, that’s what makes it so beautiful yet so tragic at the same time.

“You have a lot of heart”

Tonight’s practice was dedicated to someone, I don’t want you to feel the hurt anymore.  Every drip of sweat that rolled off of me was for you.  I hope I make you proud.

Yesterday’s practice made me realize that I should never doubt myself.  At the end of practice me and brandon did some improv to some music.

“Why does she stay” by Neyo came on.  I closed my eyes, put myself in that situation, and I let my body do the talking.  I thought I did something wrong but turns out it was something beautiful.  I never knew I was capable of such movement, or that I could create this connection between me and my audience (even if the audience is one person). 

I want to develop as a dancer, not just as a bgirl.

“You inspired my daughter.”

It’s seems like a lot of people are always trying to one up another.  At one point I kept comparing myself to other female dancers, it lead me nowhere.  It wasn’t until I finally let that go, that I began to progress.  I realized self progression was worth more.  You can not constantly measure yourself up against other people.  If you do so you are only going to grow so much, once you one up them you might not feel the need to actually reach pass your own abilities.  Also what someone else’s strength might be could be your weakness and vice versa.  

The biggest loss is when people get so caught up, that they forget why they are doing what they’re doing in the first place.  Happiness becomes competitiveness. 

Don’t get lost in the hustle, do you. 

I may never be internationally known, I may never get flown out somewhere, and I may never win a jam, but I’m more than happy just being able to have the ability to dance.